Reaching

After I get off work Friday, we are going to hit a couple of sales around here so I can get some more work clothes -- I really need some.

My friend, Dianne Sylvan, who is also my fave author, has drawn something really amazing .. it's up here at her Deviant art page .. you can order the print... I want one for Christmas! I feel bad, I was supposed to go to her birthday party last weekend but we couldn't get a babysitter. Maybe next year! I really miss seeing her.

Austin is continuing to do well on his medicine. Just today we were standing in McDonald's and he looked at me, smiling, and said, "Why am I so happy?" I told him the medicine is working and it makes me happy, too. He just gave me a hug. How amazing is that?!

This is a Tarot deck I am waiting for ~ here ~. So amazing!

Anyway that is the latest from me .... looking forward to my day off tomorrow for Thanksgiving.

'Til the next haunt .....

PS ~ Lost comes back January 21 ! I so cannot wait!

A Sigh of Relief

So Austin has been really depressed. He even threatened to kill himself at school the other day. He has been moody, angry and all in all hard to deal with. It's been quite the toll on me. But, today, he went to the psychiatrist and he put him on Risperadone 4 mg and I gave him one and already I can see a difference! I didn't realize the medicine would work that fast. But it is certainly a welcome thing. I can finally talk to him without him freaking out. It's a wonderful feeling.

Things are still going great at the bank. I really really like it. And the time just flies by really quickly so that is good.

Austin had some DVDs that he no longer wanted so we put them on Ebay and we sold them! So we are going to give the money to Austin. He is excited.

Zach's parents are coming in for Thanksgiving. They are coming Wednesday night and staying that night and Thursday and they are headed back to Port Lavaca Thursday night. His mom works at a bank too so she has to be back at work Friday. I am excited to have them come, they have never come to visit us before so this should be fun.

Anyway, that is the latest from here .... leaving you with a song .... "Papercut" by Linkin Park:

Why does it feel like night today?Something in here's not right todayWhy am I so uptight today?Paranoia's all I got leftI don't know what stressed me firstor how the pressure was fed/but I know just what it feels likeTo have a voice in the back of my headIt's like a face that I hold insideA face that awakes when I close my eyesA face that watches everytime I lieA face that laughs every time I fall(And watches everything)So I know that when it's time to sink or swimThe face inside is here in me/right underneath my skinIt's like I'm/paranoid lookin' over my backIt's like a/whirlwind inside of my headIt's like I/can't stop what I'm hearing withinIt's like the face inside is right beneath my skinI know I've got a face in mePoints out all the mistakes to meYou've got a face on the inside too andYour paranoia's probably worseI don't know what set me off first but I know what I can't standEverybody acts like the fact of the matter isI can't add up to what you canBut everybody has a face that they hold insideA face that awakes when I close my eyesA face that watches everytime they lieA face that laughs everytime they fall(And watches everything)So you know that when it's time to sink or swimThat the face inside is watching you too/right inside your skinIt's like I'm/paranoid lookin' over my backIt's like a/whirlwind, inside of my headIt's like I/can't stop, what I'm hearing withinIt's like the face inside is right beneath the skinIt's like I'm/paranoid lookin' over my backIt's like a/whirlwind inside of my headIt's like I/can't stop what I'm hearing withinIt's like the face inside is right beneath my skin(The face inside is right beneath your skin)(The face inside is right beneath your skin)(The face inside is right beneath your skin)The sun goes downI feel the light betray meThe sun goes downI feel the light betray me(The sun)It's like I'm/paranoid looking over my backIt's like a/whirlwind inside of my headIt's like I/can't stop what I'm hearing within(I feel the light betray me)It's like the face inside is right beneath your skin(The sun)It's like I'm/paranoid looking over my backIt's like a/whirlwind inside of my headIt's like I/can't stop what I'm hearing within(I feel the light betray me)It's like I/can't stop what I'm hearing withinIt's like I/can't stop what I'm hearing withinIt's like the face inside is right beneath my skin

'Til the next haunt ...

Loving my job!

I have officially started at the bank and I absolutely LOVE it! The job itself is fun and not stressful at all. And the people I work with are amazing , they are so sweet and kind. And willing to help me whenever I need it. It's great.

Austin has a couple of appointments coming up. He goes to the dentist November 20th and then the psychiatrist November 24th. We have been waiting a while to get into both of those so it will be good to get them taken care of. Austin will really benefit from being put on meds. He needs them, with him being bipolar he really needs to be on them. Just as I am.

I have been able to see Zach more so that has been nice. We get off work at the same time so that is good. I love spending time with him.

Anyway, that is about the latest here, not much going on. I will write more soon!

'Til the next haunt .....

Growing stronger each day

Well the training is going well so far. I have one more week of training before I will be at the bank. There is so much to learn and know! I am feeling a little overwhelmed. And the hour drive to Austin is killing me... it's so long! At least I am not driving, I am so thankful for Kelly and her driving!

We didn't do anything for Halloween, Austin didn't want to do anything so I went to bed at 6:30 .. I was tired!

I have been feeling better since I have been on my anti depressant. Celexa really works. So that is a good thing.

I have been missing Zach ~ we don't see each other as much with me training in Austin so I have been missing him!

Leaving y0u with this song by All That Remains ~ Two Weeks:

and you neglected I called you out don't please I said we're stronger than this now you resurrected mistakes years past it seemed and they exist to still haunt you and still you feel like the loneliness is better replaced by this I don't believe it this way and I can see the fear in your eyes I've seen it materialize Growing stronger each day I could see it as you turned to stone Still clearly I can hear you say don't leave, don't give up on me two weeks and you ran away I remember don't lie to me you couldn't see that it was not that way swear I never gave up on you I wanted nothing but for that trust again and brick by brick you would take it You feared of phantoms and none exist but you you still saw fit to destroy it and still you feel like the loneliness is better replaced by this I don't believe it this way and I can see the fear in your eyes I've seen it materialize growing stronger each day I could see it as you turned to stone still clearly I can hear you say don't leave don't give up on me two weeks and you ran away I remember don't lie to me you couldn't see that it was not that way swear I never gave up on you and you neglected I called you out don't please I said we're stronger than this now You feared of phantoms and none exist but you you still saw fit to destroy it and I can see the fear in your eyes I've seen it materialize growing stronger each day I could see it as you turned to stone still clearly I can hear you say don't leave don't give up on me two weeks you ran away I could see it as you turned to stone still clearly I can hear you say don't leave don't give up on me two weeks and you ran away I remember don't lie to me you couldn't see that it was not that way swear I never gave up on you

'Til the next haunt .......