Catching up

In the middle of March, we went to dallas for my husband's brother's wedding ... it was nice. The hotel we stayed in was really cool. Plus it was good to see his family.

Other than that, not much has been going on. I was so stupid the other day, I went to get gas and then drove off with my gas cap on top of my car ... so now i have to buy another one. Stupid me.

I have been in a flare up so mostly been laying around and not doing a whole lot. Been watching a lot of TV and reading. Trying to study too.

I have a disability hearing on the 28th so I hope that goes well. I really need it to go my way. After over 2 years of fighting, I really am tired.

Austin is doing well in school. I just have to work on waking up earlier so that I can get him there by 7:30 ..... I have been lax in that department. Anyway, he is doing well and his teachers have nothing but good things to say about him so that is good.

I have some new shows to add to my list; these are now the shows I watch: House, Chuck, 24, Castle, NCIS, Lost, The Unusuals, The New Adventures of Old Christine, Terminator: The Sarah Conner Chronicles, Moonlight.

Anyway. that is the latest from here ... please leave me a comment I am missing you guys a lot!

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Failed

I failed a test miserably. Now I have to retake it in a few days. I need to slow down and pay attention to what I am doing. I need to do well at school.

I have been volunteering at this place called Shapely Shake Shack They sell Herbal Life products there and i am going to start selling them too. So wish me luck on that .. iwill have a website soon for those interested. They are great products.

Zach didn't get into to his radiology program for this fall term ... he got i nfor next fall term. So he is blah about that .. .he was hoping to get out of where he is working sooner than that. I feel bad and there is nothing I can do to make him feel better.

Austin is feeling much better, even went and spent the night at a friend's house last night. Zach and I had a date night. Zach also said that a co worker offered to watch Austin sometimes for us so we can have a night out. I thought that was cool because we need more than just the occassional night he spends at his friend's house.

Anyway, that i sthe lastest from here ... not all good news unfortunately.

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The wish Card

I drew the 9 of cups this morning out of my Celestial Tarot deck. Since this is often called the "wish card", I was glad to stumble across it. It means overcoming something, meeting goals. Well I overcame my fear of starting my school work and took 2 exams already. I got a 100 and a 75 so not too bad. The next set of books have come in and I need to dive into them too. I think I am liking this card!

Austin is starting to feel better ... poor guy. Strep throat is terrible i know. But he has been going to school, so that is good.

I haven't been sleeping right again, the doc told me to take my meds that make me sleepy at night which I have been and now I have been waking up in the middle of the night. Like right now, it's 1:45am. Here is hoping that will change soon.

I haven't written anything else since Feb 11. Of course, I really haven't sat down to try either. Maybe I will try and tackle that tomorrow since I drew the 9 of cups.

Zach's overtime got cut at work so that means a big cut in our financial situation. I always knew this was going to happen because when he begins his school program in the fall (for radiology tech), I knew he was going to have to quit his current job and get a part time job instead. I just wasn't ready for it yet. Please say blessings for us regarding our money situation.

Anyway, that is the latest from here ... til the next haunt .....

Austin's Surgery

Well Austin's surgery went well, they capped several of his teeth and he came thru with flying colors. he was so tired afterwards and he didn't go to school yesterday. He tried but then came home. So he is at school this morning trying again. I am so proud of him. It was a long day though, they had us get there at 10:30 but didn't wheel him back to surgery til 2:10 and he was back by 3:45 and we were released to go home at 4:30. So it was a long day and considering the hospital was over an hour away, well you can imagine.

Well I got a call from school and he is running 102 degree fever so he is home for th enext couple of days ....... I took him to the doc and he has an ear infection and strep throat. Bad timing!

My books came for my school. I thought I would be super excited and ready to read them, but I am not lol. That time will come, I am sure. I have time.

Anyway, that is the latest from here .....

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Monday

Well, we have to be at the hospital at 10:30 on Monday morning for Austin's surgery, checking in to the 4th floor. I am so nervous. I am sure all will be okay, but I just hate that my baby has to have surgery.

I am officially in school! I signed up for an online course for Medical Transcriptionist and I start as soon as my books get here ! I am so excited .... this will lead to great opportunity to work at home or at a doctor's office or hospital. So I am really excited.

No more thoughts of calling mother .... thank goodness. I now realize that nothing that woman could say could change the way I feel and I also can tell you, that even after 5 years, she hasn't changed. So I am letting her go ... again ... I fear that I will have to have moments of letting her go from time to time but that is okay.

We got new dishes last night, we have been needing some dishes and so now we have a matching set which is great. also got some new silverware so all of that matches too! so yay!

Anyway, that is the lastest here ..... what have you guys been up to ? Hope that you will leave me a comment, I miss you guys! :)

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Thanks to Jacquelyn

I have a new header .. what do you think ? I aboslutely love it ! Thanks hunny !

We got Austin's surgery date ~ March 2nd. the hospital will call us Feb 27 to let us know what time to be ther e and his drinking and eating schedule before surgery. I am so nervous. I am sure he will do fine, but I am a mom, I can't help but be nervous.

I have the Tarot of Transfermation and drew this card today ~ the 1 of wands ~ grounding for creativity. I hope this means my writers block is starting to go away. I did actually write a poem on Feb 10th which I will share with you in a minute. This card means the starting or beginning of new thinking, thoughts and ideas. An unstoppable moviement. It is however the Ace of Wants which makesit a pretty pwerful card.While cards 2-19 in this suite mean hiding from the truth or afraid of facing the truth, this card means the opposite. Mental forces, truth and justice, fortitude and strengtj.

I have seen He's Just Not That Into You 3 times so far and I absolutely love it. I can't wait for it to come out on DVD. I mainly watched for Justin Long and boy was he a cutie in this movie. If you haven't seen it, RUN to your nearest theater. Don't think about it, just go!

Ok here is the poem I write the other day ~ It's called "Transenction"

There's this way you touch my face

It trancends all of space and time

It keeps me grounded in this place

You make me feel amazed and fine

As you caress my shoulder, I am transported

To a stream of concsiousness that takes me away

As I sink into your arms I know that I am supported

Sweet kisses acress my neck fade the day away

As our bodies mesh into one, I feel a completeness

One that makes magical happenings flow about

As I lay in your arms I am amazed by your sweetness

And I know that instantly you have gained some clout

Copyright@Renee Feb 11 2009

Well there ya have it , the first poem I have written in months. It's not very good but it's a start,

I found this on the net the other day which I just found heartfelt and it really spoke to me, there was no copyright info, so if it is yours let me know and iwill gladly credit ~ It's called "Weaving"

We must learn to walk in balancesacred steps to takeWeaving peace and understandingthrough all that we createA tapestry of love and lightfinest threads of goldSacred flame ever burning brightthrough all that we beholdWhen we learn to walk in balancethe healing will take placeThe healing of this earth Our Motherthe healing of the human raceA tapestry of love and lightfinest threads of goldsacred flame ever burning brightthrough all that we behold.

Isn't that amazing?

Yesterday was a great day off with the family , we got laundry and dishes done and then we went and bought a couple of shelfs for our bedroom so I could get some of my witchy stuff up off the floor and get my altar organized. I must say it looks great!!!!!!!

Anyway, I think I have rambled on long enough this time, so I will let you go ~

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Not Ready to Make Nice

This goes out ot my mother ~ had to get this off my chest ~

"Not Ready ot Make Nice" by the Dixie Chicks

Forgive, sounds goodForget, I’m not sure I couldThey say time heals everythingBut I’m still waitingI’m through with doubtThere’s nothing left for me to figure outI’ve paid a priceAnd I’ll keep payingI’m not ready to make niceI’m not ready to back downI’m still mad as hell andI don’t have time to go round and round and roundIt’s too late to make it rightI probably wouldn’t if I could‘Cause I’m mad as hellCan’t bring myself to do what it is you think I shouldI know you saidCan’t you just get over itIt turned my whole world aroundAnd I kind of like itI made my bed and I sleep like a babyWith no regrets and I don’t mind sayin’It’s a sad sad story when a mother will teach herDaughter that she ought to hate a perfect strangerAnd how in the world can the words that I saidSend somebody so over the edgeThat they’d write me a letterSayin’ that I better shut up and singOr my life will be overI’m not ready to make niceI’m not ready to back downI’m still mad as hell andI don’t have time to go round and round and roundIt’s too late to make it rightI probably wouldn’t if I could‘Cause I’m mad as hellCan’t bring myself to do what it is you think I shouldI’m not ready to make niceI’m not ready to back downI’m still mad as hell andI don’t have time to go round and round and roundIt’s too late to make it rightI probably wouldn’t if I could‘Cause I’m mad as hellCan’t bring myself to do what it is you think I shouldForgive, sounds goodForget, I’m not sure I couldThey say time heals everythingBut I’m still waiting

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